I wanted to start writing about some things I might have been personally feeling and hating to share. Things that are really hard to say and are not the lightest topic, but I feel it might be beneficial to someone who is in the same boat.
I would really like to start this year with only one huge goal that I can follow to the next one and so on. I’m not big on NY resolutions and I’m not planning on making any, but this is more like a personal goal, and I think it is about time to do it.
CARE LESS ABOUT WHAT EVERYONE ELSE THINK.
There is it, I said it! And I mean it! I mean all that goes with it! I waste too much energy on other people’s opinions and I care too much about how I portray myself. It is freaking exhausting!
I am working in a profession where I have to be a certain way, an example and a role model. But I sometimes forget about what I really want. I always though that when you work with children you have to be nearly perfect. But now, to be honest, I’m to tired to be perfect every day, whatever that means! I should be using my precious energy for something else rather than worrying about things I have no control of. Why is that?
I was thinking what it is that makes you want to be in best books with everyone and it is because you don’t want to be embarrassed. Being embarrassed would mean that you are vulnerable and that means that you are weak and essentially not perfect. See how that sounds totally silly? But I’m certain that there might be some of you, who are feeling exactly the same. It is emotionally draining what we do for our job – amazingly satisfying and so lovely, don’t get me wrong!
We as humans are judgemental. If you make an effort one day and count how many times you will have to stop yourself before you start judging somebody I bet it won’t be just one time? That girl on the street, mum at the park, dad smoking a cigarette…we judge all the time. I think we do it because of our own insecurity. It is understandable in some way, why we would care so much what others think, and it is because we are social beings, we like relationships and deep inside we strive to be happy and secure. I believe we are programmed like this because we can’t survive alone. If we behave in a more considerable way that we might be otherwise it increases our chance for others to like us.
I personally don’t like it when someone does not like me, I have a really hard time to live with it, especially if I see that person a lot. But I definitely understand that not every time personality matches, and not everyone will like you. If you are the same, let’s make this goal together, let’s work on how we feel as opposed to what others think, let’s make ourself happy before we try and make everyone else happy.
Putting yourself out there to be criticised isn’t a walk in the park, unless you have a good shoes – than you can just step over it and walk away with your head high! You are so amazingly you, and there is nothing else you need, but your smile. Start with that!
The Lovely Nanny xx